I’m on a revisiting kick.
Several of her songs have sung their way in to if not pivotal, then memorable moments of my life. And for that I feel attached to them.
This was playing on the radio as I packed my bags for my first ever solo trip abroad. Flying alone for the first time was contributing to some pretty bad nerves. Then, as I was sitting down on my enormous suitcase while my dad zipped it up, I heard Kelly sing “Breakaway”. It went very nicely with my impressionable state and certainly helped romanticize my travel experience, thus distracting me from typical consuming anxieties. It was easy to fall in love with the concept.
Epic on so many different levels! An indispensable part of spontaneous singing sessions and strangely refreshed (not that it needed it) since Pitch Perfect came out. This was my break-up song. Well, this was my dumped song. This was the song I listened to in the dark, crying first and then furiously singing along. This was the song that went with the first break-up in my life that hurt in that I-don’t-know-how-this-is-ever-going-to-get-better-way. Timely, indeed! Need I say more? I have a friend I’m dying to sing this with for karaoke. I know we could kill it. She still needs to be convinced, but I have not lost hope.
This didn’t receive as much rotation as her other songs, at least not on the radio stations that usually accompany my breakfast. But I heard it for the first time after recovering from a bad bout of unrequited love/ shattered expectations/ many confusing emotions about a guy who I thought had led me on. I don’t know if there was anything to forgive the guy in question for (see unrequited love – and was it even love?) It wasn’t about forgiveness in the traditional sense, it was about removing myself from the painful feelings and negative thoughts associated with the person. “I forgive you, I forgive me/ Now when do I start to feel again.”
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